Phèdre no Delaunay

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

lol. Trent Reznor, you are such an ass! I LOVE YOU!

Name Four of Your Bad Habits:
1. Smoking
2. Cursing
3. Forgetful
4. Clumsy

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. Paul
2. Lotus
3. Midsummer's Night candles
4. Patchouli

Name Your Top Four TV Shows
1. Profiler
2. Pretender
3. Distraction
4. Invader Zim
(NOTE: These are really the only tv shows that I watch. No cable, so I have to watch at Paul's)

Name Your Top Four Movies
1. Magnolia
2. Resevior Dogs
3. LOTR
4. Harry Potter

Name Four People Who Know You the Best:
1. Jenny
2. Paul
3. Shellie
4. Pop Rox (Porcia)

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. Jak II is awesome.
2. Adam is a super cool kid and I have to thank him for burning a copy of the Garden State Soundtrack for me.
3. I love Brian Lumley.
4. Really have to pee... BRB!!!!

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. Missed class
2. Played Jak II
3. Got the virus off my computer
4. Downloaded music

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. Milk
2. Water
3. Coke
4. Strawberry Soda

Can You Rember:
First Grade Teacher's Name?: Ms. Lipinski
Last Words You Said: "Goodnight Aquila."
Last Song You Sang?: "Gingerbread Coffin" by Rasputina
Last Person You Hugged?: Paul
Last Thing You Laughed At?: Story that Paul told me
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?: About an hour ago
Last Time You Cried?: Yesterday morning
What's In Your CD Player?: The Verve Pipe
What Color Socks Are You Wearing?: Cream, with plaid kitties on them
What's Under Your Bed?: Old papers, shoes, clothes, and my badger was until 3 seconds ago. (now he's on my printer)
What Time Did You Wake Up Today?: Which time?
Current Taste?: Sweet
Current Hair?: The usual: Blonde, messy, and thrown into a ponytail/bun thing
Current Clothes?: Jeans, black long sleeve shirt, hoodie
Current Annoyance?: need to wash hair
Current Longing?: New Zelda... XBox... Oddworld
Current Desktop Picture?: Trent with Reptile lyrics
Current Worry?: none
Current Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?: Paul's tummy!!!!
Last CD You Bought?: Nine Inch Nails "The Downward Spiral" (special edition)
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To?: MYOB! lol
How Many Kids Do You Want?: Let's not talk about that...

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE

Name: Katherine Leah Kilbourne
Birth date: July 23,1986
Birthplace: Alabama
Current location: Glorious Rolling Meadows, the Cultural Capital of the World! (sarcasm)
Eye color: Blue
Hair color: Bonde
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Leo (Grr!!!)

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE

Your heritage: Name a country. Is it in Europe? If yes, then I'm probably from there. Mostly Croatian, Italian, Irish, Russian and German. Oh, and Native American.
Your weakness: Chocolate, and deadly dark eco!!!
Your fears: Spiders, snakes, loud noises, heights, depths, forests, flying, Yog-Sothoth, red-litten Yoth... I'm sorry... I'm getting silly with this...
Your perfect Pizza: Pepperoni

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW

Your most overused phrase on Aim: Don't have aim because it deposits spy ware and crap on my computer
Your thoughts waking up: I hate the world.
Your best physical feature: I don't know... ask Paul
Your bedtime: Whenever I'm exhausted enough to sleep
Your most missed memory(ies): ?

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICKS

Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Panda
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Mocha

LAYER FIVE: DO/DID YOU...?

Smoke: Yes!
cuss: Yes I do Shitbag.
Single: No
Think you've been in love: Think? No. Know? Yes.
Like(d) high school: Mostly yes, exept for the little primadonna prissy bitches and the insecure, immature guys.
Want to get married: Eventually
Believe in yourself: When I feel like it.
Get motion sickness: Yes
Think you're attractive: NO!
Think you're a health freak: NO!
Get along with your parents: Yes
Like thunderstorms: No
Play an instrument: Yes. The triangle. And the tambourine.

LAYER SIX: THE PAST MONTH

Drank alcohol: Nope
Done a drug: Birthcontrol?
Gone on a date: Yes
Gone to the mall: I work there.
Been on stage: No
Eaten sushi: No
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: No
Gone skinny dipping: No
Dyed your hair: No
Stolen anything: Nothing that I remember

LAYER SEVEN: EVER

Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes
Been caught "doing something": Yes
Been called a tease?: Yes
Gotten beaten up: Yes
Shoplifted: Yes
Changed who you were to fit in: No

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER

Age you hope to be married: IDK, between 22 and 28
Numbers of children: ?
Describe your dream wedding: It's a secret.
How do you want to die: In bloody shreiking horror after incribing "Cthylla" on the wall in my own blood... Not that anyone will get that. Dammit people read fucking Lovecraft.
What do you want to be when you grow up?: Freedom Fighter

LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY

Best eye color?: Green
Best hair color?: Black
Short or Long Hair: Long if it's straight, short if it's curly
Height: Doesn't matter.
Best first date location: Depends
Articles of Clothing?: Depends on occasion
(NOTE: These are just preferences. This doesn't mean I don't find you attractive, Paul. Shut up.)

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS

Number of people I could trust with my life: 8
Number of CD's I own: Alot?
Number of piercings: 3
Number of tattoos: None yet
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: I don't know... a few?
Number of scars on my body: Too many to count.
Number of things in my past that I regret: A few.

Copy, Paste, Change the answers to yours. Post.

Oh yeah, what we're living in (let me tell ya)
It's a wonder man can eat at all
When things are big that should be small
Who can tell what magic spells we'll be doing for us
And I'm giving all my love to this world
Only to be told
I can't see
I can't breathe
No more will we be
And nothing's going to change the way we live
Cos' we can always take but never give
And now that things are changing for the worse,
See, its a crazy world we're living in
And I just can't see that half of us immersed in sin
Is all we have to give these -

Futures made of virtual insanity now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

And I'm thinking what a mess we're in
Hard to know where to begin
If I could slip the sickly ties that earthly man has made
And now every mother, can choose the colour
Of her child
That's not nature's way
Well that's what they said yesterday
There's nothing left to do but pray
I think it's time I found a new religion
Waoh - it's so insane
To synthesize another strain
There's something in these
Futures that we have to be told.

Futures made of virtual insanity - now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

Now there is no sound
If we all live underground
And now it's virtual insanity
Forget your virtual reality
Oh, there's nothing so bad.
I know yeah

Of this virtual insanity, we're livin in.
Has got to change, yeah
Things, will never be the same.
And I can't go on
While we're livin' in oh, oh virtual insanity
Oh, this world, has got to change
Cos I just, I just can't keep going on, it was virtual.
Virtual insanity that we're livin' in, that we're livin' in
That virtual insanity is what it is

Futures made of virtual insanity - now
Always seem to, be govern'd by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound - for we all live underground

Living - Virtual Insanity
Living - Virtual Insanity
Living - Virtual Insanity
Living - Virtual Insanity

Virtual Insanity is what we're living in


I love you, Jamiroquai.

Hello all! I know I haven't updated in a while, but Paul lent me a great book recently. It's called DEPRAVED AND INSULTING ENGLISH. It's basically a bunch of obscure and unused words that are really quite useful, most of them being (obviously) extremely rude and disgusting. I highly recommend.

In fact, I've just found a little gem of a word. Well, truth to tell, the word isn't all that great, besides having a number of practical uses in everday life, but the accompanying sentence struck me as particularly amusing, especially in light of the upcoming holiday.

ENTHEOMANIAC (en THEE o MAY nee ak) n. : one who is literally insane about religion.
Sentence: "Easter seemed to lose some of its carefree spirit for the children the year they celebrated it at the country home of their Aunt Helen, an ENTHEOMANIAC who insisted that they recite an hour of the Scriptures before hunting for eggs. She ended the day with a lecture on what happens to children who go to Hell, illustrated nicely by microwaving a foil-wrapped chocolate bunny rabbit."

Ahhh... delightfully twisted.

Thanks to Peter Novobatzky and Ammon Shea for compiling this wonderful book of warped and disturbing jewels of the English language.

FUN QUOTES!!!!

If you like to dress up in latex and dance to techno music, does that make you perverted?
Or, if you have secretly purchased 200 pairs of Manolo Blahnik shoes, and gratify yourself while watching them rotate on a spotlighted pedestal as Johnny Mathis records play in the background, does that make you perverted? Well, maybe it does actually, but is that a bad thing?


But whether you should join in is totally up to you. Obviously your husband has given this some thought, but I’m betting he is imagining you, him and a babe named Tiffanie; not you, him and a guy named Bruno.

'One way to be sure you never have an orgasm is to obsess about it.'

There are no major health consequences to frequent masturbation. If there were, plenty of men would look like Gollum from "The Lord of the Rings."

People don’t exist so you can check episodes off your sexual dance card.

Men like naughty, horny women. At 20, most guys are too worried about our own studliness to enjoy the thought of another man thrilling a woman we love. But middle-agers who’ve been married a long time are usually pretty secure. So it’s safe to imagine their wives as the town sluts.


haha I love Sex Columns!

I'm gonna turn
and walk away
you can wait
til I am far along
then run and come
and catch my arm
and say you'd die
if I were gone
I want to hear you
call my name
it's too easy
just to say it soft
I don't like my language
watered down
I don't like my edges
rounded off
~from ani difranco - Make me Stay

i realized that night
that the hall light

which seemed so bright when you turned it on
is nothing
compared to the dawn
which is nothing
compared to the light
which seeps from you while you're sleeping
beautiful and grotesque
resting
cocooned in my room
that night we got kicked out of two bars
and laughed our way home
and i held you there thinking
i would offer you my pulse
i would give you my breath
i would offer you my pulse
~from ani - Pulse

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laying on the couch
and the music plays, plays
snapping fingers twisting bodies
i see it on the table

i can't must wait
i look
it looks back
the needle speaks
it calls

suddenly i need it
can't stand it
so i do it
push off get off
all the same

it rushes through
all the happiness
all in one little vein

the lights dance
the smoke writhes
the music suddenly pounds through
absorbs everything
im lost in the moment
giggling twitching

every sensation is a revelation
fingers through hair
cloth against skin

and the moment expands
rising above the dingy apartment
where the music pounds and
the lights dance and
the smoke writhes

and now i'm laying on the couch
and the music plays and plays
snapping fingers twisting bodies
i see it on the table

~katrina~

just a reflection
just a glimpse
just a little reminder
of all the what abouts
and all the might have
could have beens
another day
some other way
but not another reason to continue
and now you're one of us
the wretched

the hopes and prays
the better days
the far aways
forget it

it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to, did it?
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to, did it?

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

the clouds will part and the sky cracks open
and god himself will reach his fucking arm
through
just to push you down
just to hold you down
stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss
and it's hard to believe it could come down to this back at the beginning
sinking
spinning

and in the end
we still pretend
the time we spend
not knowing when
you're finally free
and you could be

but it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out quite the way that you wanted it

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

you can try to stop it but it keeps on coming
you can try to stop it but

this is how
it begins
push it away but it all comes back again
all the flesh
all the sin
there was a time when it used to mean just about everything

just like now

breathe, echoing the sound
time starts slowing down
sink until i drown
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop

and it keeps repeating
will you please complete me?

never be enough
to fill me up

watch the white
turn to red
it fills up the hole but it grows somewhere else instead
all my life
yeah yeah yeah yeah, but it just left me dead
(well guess what?)
the world is over and i realize it was all in my head

now everything is clear
i erase the fear
i can disappear
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop

you can never leave me
will you please complete me

never be enough
to fill me up

QUOTE OF THE DAY! (at least for now)

Nothing lives long

Only the earth and the mountains

Cheyenne Death Song

 

Oh yeah... so my grades came earlier this week... and all i have to say is too fuckin funny... I totally did no work in any class but Expo and somehow managed to pass everything.  I even got an A in psych and in my art class and I didn't do SHIT for either of them... Oh yeah... even better: I turned in NOTHING, I repeat: ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for my Animal Behavior class. I had a 25% in the class (due to quizzes and tests).  Then I turned in my final.  I had a 124% on it (you didn't have to answer all the questions, but I did in case I got something wrong) and Doc has a rule that if you get a 96 or higher, you automatically get an A in the course. That rocks. Also my photo teacher passed me with a C... something that couldn't have been done considering the amount of work I didn't do and the fact that I didn't turn in my final.

Yeah... I seem to be having some issues with typing the word "didn't." I keep typing "did'nt."  I think the entire english speaking/writing population should change the spelling to accomidate me. LOL. God that sounded really American.

 I think it's rediculous that so many people in this country have to point the finger at someone else when something goes wrong... Paul and I were talking about this earlier.  It's like "I'm horribly, disgustingly, terrifyingly obese! I'm going to sue Mc Donald's!"  What you need to do is eat healthy, get off your lazy ass and get some exercise, fatty. Not sue some corporation who duped you with advertising. That's what business do. They are there to provide a service and reap a profit.  It's not their fault that you sit in front of the TV and eat too much of their nasty, greasy food. It's yours.

In anycase, I'm wandering...

Holy shit... I just spaced for 5 minutes and just stared at the computer screen. 

Oh how weird.  I just got a random phone call from Nick.  It's after fuckin midnight for christ's sake.  Too bad I missed it, though. I'm kinda wondering wtf that was about. Oh well.  Hey it's 12:20! That means its tommorrow! Hurrah, Huzzah, and all other such words of joy and pleasure!  That means it's time for a new:

QUOTE OF THE DAY!!

Squee: Daddy, I'm scared. I heard noises! Daddy?

Father: Son, we just moved here. You're just not use to the sounds of our new house.  I'm busy right now. Working. That's all I seem to do now. I have to work to keep you alive. To feed you. I havent smiled once since you were born.  Go to sleep.

Oh... and p.s. The "dirty" feeling? Don't get all riled up... It's nothing sexual... I just REALLY need to wash my hair. Its gross... Thought you'd all like to know...

Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away

New, you're so new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past
New, you're so new

My normal hesitation is gone
And I really gravitate to your will
Are you here to fetch me out?
'Cause I've never had this taste in my mouth

You're not old
And you're not familiar
Recently discovered and I'm learning about you

New, you're so new
You, you're new

And you're consuming me violently
And your reverence shamelessly tempting me
Who sent this maniac?
'Cause I never had this taste in the past

You're different, you're different from the former
Like a fresh battery I'm energized by you

(chorus)

Why am I so curious?
This territory is dangerous
I'll probably end up at the start
I'll be back in line with my broken heart
New, you're so new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past

(chorus)

And I can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Don't let it go away, this feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away

 

QUOTE OF THE DAY!

Drink coffee! Do stupid things faster and with more energy!

Yeah... so one in the morning and I (as usual) can't sleep.  So I'm online. Yep.
Bored.  (...) Mm-hmm. 
Well a few of my friends have stuff like "song of the day" and that kind of crap so I've decided that I'm going to do "Quote of the Day."  Ta-Da!  Huzzah for the amazingness that is KAT.

However, since today is technically yesterday right now...

YESTERDAY'S QUOTE OF THE DAY!
"Hurl'd headlong flaming from th'Ethereal Sky
With hideous ruin and combustion down
To bottomless perdition, there to dwell
In Adamantine Chains and penal Fire,
Who durst defy th'Omnipotent to Arms.
Nine times the Space that measures Day and Night
To mortal men, he with his horrid crew
Lay vanquisht, rolling in the fiery Gulf
Confounded though immortal: But his doom
Reserv'd him to more wrath; for now the thought
Both of lost happiness and lasting pain
Torments him; round he throws his baleful eyes
That witness'd huge affliction and dismay
Mixt with obdurate pride and steadfast hate:
At once as far as Angel's ken he views
The dismal Situation waste and wild,
A Dungeon horrible, on all sides round
As one great Furnace flam'd, yet from those flames
No light, but rather darkness visible
Serv'd only to discover sights of Woe..."

Lines 45-64 of Milton's "Paradise Lost"

QUOTE OF THE DAY!

" 'Scumby, I don't think my mom would like me looting graves.'

'Screw your stinkin' momma, Poker!! I needs me some new shoes!!' "

JTHM - Johnen Vasquez

My hand asleep for hours
Waiting for the needles to begin
I have no control
They proceed to penetrate my skin

Acting as your slave
I drink for amber waves
I never have embraced
Acting as your slave
I drink an open grave
An epitaph defaced

Killing with compassion
She hasn't heard a word that I have said
Swallowing your passion
I can see a thousand miles ahead

Acting as your slave
I drink for barricades
That I have often raised
Acting as your slave
I numb my head and rave
Of epitaphs defaced

Acting as your slave
I drink while she forgave
With trials left unfaced
Acting as your slave
I stumble to her grave
An epitaph defaced

All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper
Nor do the wind the sun or the rain (we can be like they are)
Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)
Baby take my hand (don't fear the reaper)
We'll be able to fly (don't fear the reaper)
Baby I'm your man
La-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la-la

Valentine is done
Here but now they're gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity (Romeo and Juliet)
40,000 men and women everyday (like Romeo and Juliet)
40,000 men and women everyday (redefine happiness)
Another 40,000 coming everyday (we can be like they are)
Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)
Baby take my hand (don't fear the reaper)
We'll be able to fly (don't fear the reaper)
Baby I'm your man
La-la-la-la-la la-la-la-la-la

Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared (saying don't be afraid)
Come on baby (and she had no fear)
And she ran to him (then they started to fly)
They looked backward and said goodbye (she had become like they are)
She had taken his hand (she had become like they are)
Come on baby (don't fear the reaper)